Letting go of the need to control

I want to control the world. My whole world.

Everything in it.

But the reality there is very little I can control.

I can’t control the cars on the highway around me. I can’t control the weather. I can’t control people.

I can’t control my mother’s addiction.

Yet I burn for control. This is because my whole life, I latched onto every piece of my life that I could control because everything else around me was swirling out of control. I was in constant pursuit of controlling it.

I know from education that this intense need for control is totally normal – a common trait of the adult child of an alcoholic.

When I have accepted something as my responsibility, I have a deep sense of duty tied to it. When someone does something that hinders my ability to fulfil my duty with full control, it is extremely distressing.

This affects my work.

In my career, I am a professional communicator. When people are delayed, when plans change, when priorities change, when a wrench appears in my carefully applied, controlled plans, it drives me crazy.

I have a physical reaction to it.

It’s me attempting to control my entire world – to prevent that thing from happening two steps from now that is going to make me feel that I don’t have control of the situation, of the project. It is me trying to save someone from something and preventing them from learning and growing.

So while I am feeling disappointed or annoyed with someone, I’m still accepting the martyr role. I am enabling them. I am still avoiding conflict. I am doing more than I should. I am holding those feelings inside. Silent to everyone but my internal thoughts.

This happens in my personal life. With my family changes plans. When there are surprises.

Here are the 3 ways I’ve been working on letting go of the need for control:

  1. Pausing when something happens and asking myself, can I control this/should I control this?

Nope? Let it go.

  1. Getting the heck out of own self-created comfort zone.

My comfort zone is all comfy and familiar and so very controlled and boring. That’s why I am doing something new every day.

http://www.jodylamb.com/2018/05/do-something-new-every-day-35-day-challenge/

  1. Learning how to react differently when something is out of my control.

I am working on better managing stress and anxiety by keeping up with self-care activities and learning new ways (such as meditation and yoga) to react to what I cannot control.

I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you… we are in charge of our Attitudes.”
― Charles R. Swindoll

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